Friday, July 31, 2009
- I hate discrimination
- I'm a dreamer
- I love playing guitar
- I can write a song
- I love writing novels
- I love singing
- My family on my dad's side is Christian while my family on my mom's side is Muslim and my Noorman's father side is Hindu (that is why I hate discrimination)
- I'm a mix blooded of Philippines and Indonesian while I'm a Malaysian citizen
- I got asthma but I love cat very much
- I love drawing and photo editing using Adobe Photoshop
- I love Vintage and Jazz music
...and I'm a creative minded...
and then after this......
going back home and daydreaming all day and doing for-fun-part-time job nearby to collect some penny for myself, missing noorman everyday and being a normal home-girl..
tonight, i'm gonna pack my things which i will give it to my uncle tommorow so on the day i go back home on 4th aug, i dont have to carry so many 3 years luggages...
noorman and me will pack our things tonight together since he'll also leave on the next day after me.. what a great day...
mom and dad is waiting me now at home and i really cant wait to see them... after all, noorman and i gonna miss all the memories we have in this city...
love you all...mmuah!
Thursday, July 30, 2009
uh-hu, i wont write it down here fully but you know about my previous blog i wrote.. its kind a funny things to think about but i still love my day yesterday...
i cant believe about being betrayed but, i know why... its all because jealousy and hateness in the person's heart over the perfection in me! why i said it was a fake and perfect because; i perfectly made a fake perfect day yesterday... a fake smile and a fake happy day but deep in my heart, i'm about to laugh out loud!!! because the person who try to betray me was sooo stupid! bad planning and..idiot!!hahaha
but i'm still saying i do perfect than her! i am prettier than her and i'm smarter than her... noorman parents advice me to stay calm and patient about all this bad things happened because i am counting my days to leave this place very soon...
a patient person will always win...i love myself, i love my life...
Wednesday, July 29, 2009
but i still like my childhood. when i was 7 or 12...or maybe when i was on my sweet 16 or 17 years old with my highschool life... i guess that time is much better. because when we were young, we dont have to think too much about how's life going on.. dont have to worry about how much penny you've spent that day because you'll have it tomorrow...
highschool was so great... having cute boys around and admiring (uh-hu), chatting and gigling with friends... oh, how i really miss that day...
before i turn on 18, i was living with mom dad and sisters and brother at our home sweet home. i REALLY miss that moments... we lived there for almost 15 years, i still remember i was 5 years old something when we moved there... what a great days... i learnt everything about life and being a good girl... although it was not in a uptown area, but good enough to see how wide this world be...
but then, on 2006, i continues my study 500km away from home and start a new life away from my family.. then i met noorman, a man who change my life forever, tought be to be brave and to be mature in all matters...
end 2007, my dad was transfered to other estate which mean we have to leave the 15 years old house we lived in happily... its a very touching moments for me and my family leaving the house. it was a great memory our family ever had... and now we live at our new home in an urban area.. a very big changes to my sisters and brother to grow up...
after 3 years strugling in this city, 500km away from home, its time for me to go home... leaving this horrible place and many unforgetable memories together with noorman... noorman will leave this place to and...... we gonna meet soon and start a very new life..
for my 21th birhtday; i would like to thank my mom and dad for giving happiness along my ages, my sisters and brother for filling my life with wonderful moments, my beloved relatives whose always giving me smiles and huges, and my beloved noorman for all the loves and kisses.. how much i really love you all...
no more rain in my life... i'm gonna start a brand new happy life with many more things to do...
- May Allah bless my ages
- May Allah bless my family
- May Allah bless my Noorman and our love
- May Allah lighten up my way
- May Allay giving me chances in every decision I made
- May Allah never forget me...
Tuesday, July 28, 2009
Monday, July 27, 2009
- wake up late
- endless rest
- job-interview at airport shops
- draft my webpage
- doing comic strips
- draw on clothes
- do handcraft
- playing guitar and sing new songs
- recording my songs
- chat with mom
- endless sms with noorman
- borrow books at library
- do hairstyle
- wear short pants
- crying missing noorman
- counting stars
- lying at datul's room porch till dusk
- try to bake a cookies
- listening to my mp3 collections using the woofer at living room with mom
- MISSING NOORMAN EVERYDAY
Friday, July 24, 2009
Thursday, July 23, 2009
- Do not think too much about the sad side of leaving this place
- Do not take the bad words from those stupid peoples
- Do not make Noorman sad and hurt
- Do not be so lazy and too sensitive at home
- Do not cry too much
he told me to be brave to face this moment..
things will be better soon and there is nothing will separate us when we believe in ourselves..
i know this might be so hurt to walk through alone but i will always remind myself that he and He will always by my side to give me love so i wont feel so lonely..
i know this separations is so hard but he told me not to say it as separations but as the beginning of our happy story that will never end...
i love you so much... (^.^)
thanx for your warmth words
Wednesday, July 22, 2009
I plan to stick Noorman's pictures and me on my bedroom wall just like these.
i planned to go back to my hometown, Sandakan on the 1st week of this Aug which mean i have to leave him here for a very long time... and him, he'll also gonna leave this place soon... we both gonna leave this place, Kota Kinabalu forever and start a new life...
we met here in this place 3 years ago when i was on my 1st semester while he was my 4th semester's senior... we became a good friend until later on we fell in love..
for three years, i've learnt everything in this place... not about my diploma in Multimedia, but also learnt how to love and to be love... to feel responsible and tough friendship...
Noorman really brings me to a real life...
and the time for me to leave is almost near..
the moment that we both really fear for..
we've planned that after few months later, we well meet back somewhere else... in a very new place.. and we'll start our happy new life together which is we promised will be better than here...
we have learnt everything.. bitter and sweet of our relationship and now we are ready to face anything with this little brave..
i love you forever
Monday, July 20, 2009
happy birthday to you...
happy birthday to you...
happy birtday to iza the owl..
happy birthday to youuu....
may Allah bless you 17th and forever!!
iza is my very close sister...she's the 4th daughter after me..we have 6 siblings, 5 girls (i'm the third, iza in the 4th) then the last daughter datul and our 1st n last boy among us, fizul...
iza is a quite girl bit if she close enough to someone, she wont stop talking when she wants to talk but when she's in a study mood, she will only let you speak for 5seconds then she will ignore you..
she's very active in silat (malay martial art) and she's very genius in science! she good in playing guitar, quite religious, a bit tomboy and funny..
her friends called her Burung Hantu (owl) because she really looks like owl, silent and...really look like an owl...
whatever it is... we'll meet at raya..
Friday, July 17, 2009
watching fake smiles passed from time to time,
also those painful tears that giving me nightmares...
but i know i have to face this loneliness alone,
crossing this emptiness with a little brave in heart..
Although he's with me here,
i must stand on my own,
thinking and convincing myself that i have to be brave alone,
saying to my own eyes that i have to do on my own,
and face all those mad faces that hurts my soul so much..
i love my family as myself,
i love him as i love myself,
but i need Him more than anyone i love..
cause He knows my sadness,
He saw my tears,
He feel my painful heart,
but i know i have to be brave to face this world..
because i always know;
that no matter how long i should walk along this empty shore,
He watch every step i take...
He knows everything...